Moving Forward
I woke this morning from the deep slumber of sleep and peace to an unfamiliar place. Where am I? What is this place? I genuinely don’t know how I feel. I’m not sad but not happy. I’m not afraid but nervous. I’m not motivated, and the thought of moving through the day feels paralyzing. Nothing seems appealing. Trapped between the barrier of uncertainty and confusion, lost in the dark recesses of my mind. I genuinely don’t know what I am feeling. I only know that it doesn’t feel good.
It feels unnerving and painful. Where to start? How to get moving? Feeling lost in shame and embarrassment. How could I even explain this to someone when I can’t explain it to myself? Lying down now. Focusing on my breath. Just breathing. Just breathing. Blocking out the noise inside my head. I can allow myself this moment. This one moment with no ambitions and no agendas. This one moment is just for me and my spirit. There’s nowhere else I need to be. There’s nothing else I need to do but release, trust, and believe.
This place, though unfamiliar, is valid. My feelings are valid because they help to protect me. The guilt starts to lift and fade away. The shame starts to lift and dissipate. My confused mind is becoming clearer now. Just breathe. Just breathe. Everything will be okay. My body is softening and relaxing more now. Just lean into the peace and serenity. You deserve this moment. You deserve this love and understanding. I am forgiving myself so the healing can begin.
The sunrise will be here soon in all of its magnificent brilliance, welcoming a new day and a new beginning. As the darkness of night recedes, golden beams of light stretching to the heavens will grace the sky. This is the opportunity to put your face to the sun and feel its warm embrace. As you lift your face to the sun, you cannot see a shadow.
New beginnings offer the opportunity for new intentions. Allow yourself the intention of being true to who you really are and carry this intention throughout the day, like a gift. Like the wondrous sunrise that greets a new day, your light will grace the world and reach the heavens above.
