Disconnecting from the Depths of Denial
Do not hide from me in the dark crevices of the canyons in your mind, for my light will always find and reach you even there. What may appear as initial protection means you are all the more in need of my presence. Peace and solitude cannot be found concealed in the dark forests of the world. The safety of my warm embrace will cradle you. Like the baby fox ready to leave its den, you too must return to the sunshine. The heart and mind that you’ve armored and shut away are in desperate need of love and compassion. I can loosen the wedge of disconnection created between the two. Just as your mind naturally created a fortress of protection, it is equally capable of dismantling each stone one by one. The armor can be stripped away layer by layer. And I can provide the key to unlock the treasure chest inside you. It is filled with acceptance, trust, and faith that have been locked away for far too long. You need not judge yourself. You need not criticize yourself. You are not to blame.
YOU ARE NOT TO BLAME.
I know your bones are worn and weary, and fear and disbelief are still holding you hostage. There is comfort in pretending that all is well. However, consider this: acceptance can cultivate hope and trust, and forge new roads of discovery and exploration. Resisting reality does not change reality. Although the reality you once knew is but a whisper in the wind now, your spirit remains whole and complete.
By abandoning destructive habits, you have made the brave choice to take back control to free your soul. You can relinquish self-sabotage, discard fear, and choose courage, faith, and trust, even while you are vulnerable. Remember that even during times of suffering, miracles are being born every second. Life’s greatest blessings can be found around every corner.
May the magic of life’s luminescent force feed your soul. Be gentle and tender with yourself, for it is in the time of your greatest need that you deserve to love and care for yourself even more. Waking from the deep slumber of denial, allow your sleepy eyes to open and step back into the light. For I am hope, and I will gently guide you hand in hand, each step of the way. Lean into this deep love and express gratitude for rescuing yourself from a life of suffering. You deserve this still, quiet tranquility. Now stay in this moment and allow yourself to heal as you feel the nourishing power of hope, faith, and encouragement coursing through every part of your being.
Close your eyes now and bring your focus to your breath. Feel the rise and fall of your chest, like the rise and fall of ocean waves. Allow any tension to melt away. Allow any resistance to melt away. Letting go now.
Bring your awareness to your inner well of strength and abundance. Now open your heart to self-acceptance, forgiveness, and understanding, providing freedom to your mind and spirit. By surrendering, you have allowed yourself to stretch and grow, and to learn so much more about your inner wealth than you ever knew before. Your present reality may have changed, but with wisdom and determination, you can forge a new and beautiful reality.
The past is the past. Only its beauty remains. Know that you are loved and supported, and opportunities to nurture loving relationships are within your grasp. You can piece together the shattered pieces of your identity, creating a new sculpture of artistry and grace. You can allow your heart to open like a flower, and let its seeds flow on the breeze. Allow each of those seeds to return to the earth, and give birth to new life, and new dreams for you to cultivate.
Or perhaps this new journey you’ve embarked on is a blank canvas for which you can choose from the most beautiful color palette to create the breathtaking landscape that you desire, using curiosity and a sense of adventure to guide each brush stroke. Confidently and unapologetically, reconnect to your authenticity. Let the future unfold as it will, absent of forced control.
Know that the light that shines within is divine and eternal. Now, through playful discovery and exploration, allow this light to illuminate new and exciting paths, guiding you back to wellness and innocence. Remember, not long ago, you were just a sweet baby; extend the same love, kindness, and tenderness to that inner babe as you so easily extend to others. Breathe life into this precious, new beginning and embrace this opportunity to evolve.
